hg rbjvivbnv 
its been like forever.
im sorry </3

i actually missed you, but i've just not been able to get online!
i spent weeks in hospital then was always tired and now Im back at school i have time for nothing!
i hate it.

god you've all missed so much, i'v made mistakes, got drunk, had a laugh, fell out, made friends, been bitchy, the usual really :')

so lets startttttttt with hospital.
it all happened again -.-
spent like a life time in there, it was like pas boredom.
they still don't know whats wrong with me yet, its so annoying.

so yeah, i slept with matty :/
biggest mistake everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
fcb fgghuigvn g FACT!  wasn't even worth it.
my mum found out, his mum found out was so funny :') funny this is, my mum don't give a shit.
its not she don't care about me, she just knew it was gonna happen and there was nothing she could do :')
so now me and him aint walking, he hasn't told his girlfriend, so me & Jorja are trying to find her & were gonna tell her :D gonna be fun, God he's such a twat.
NEVER! play strip 21.

so then, loads of shit went round school about me when i was in hospital -.- people fell out with me, just because some slag was chatting shit, not even gonna go into detail. But tis all sorted now :D

So, my friend Beth, who is Mattys sister, came out bisexual and she likes me.
We don't talk anymore coz i shagged her brother :') what a twat.
not bothered, she gets terrorised at school.

omgomgomgomg!
IM GOING NEVERSHOUTNEVER! & THE MAINE IN 17DAYS!
so excited, got so many gigs coming up recently :D cost me hundreds -.-


thought about going lez. then thought again, i duno, i think im gonna stay away from boys at the minute, even though im meeting Jorja's boyfriends friend tomorrow :')
meh i duno, gonna have to be special to change my mind anyway, started thinking more wisely now anyway..

so yeah, i met A Day To Remember :D
very happy moment btw :')

meh i gotta gooo.
im my diploma -.- happy times, lol jks.
promise i wont forget to blog now, i missed it.

a girl being something she's not.xo

A little bit of an update :D

omgomgomgomg!
I ORDERED MY NEVERSHOUTNEVER! TICKET :D happy happy fucking happy.
March 23 2011 7:00 PM, Academy 2 Manchester.
Shall be the happiest moment ever.


God im so excited.


Bestfriend? Lol wtf.
I am no longer friends with Jorja, Don't ask why, Just no. People change.


Matty? bvgobfjfjg. (ANGER).
i dont fucking get it!
he has been at my house 4 nights in a row now, not leaving to late, we sit having a laugh watching tv with my pracically lay on him, we talk about the weirdest things, we made fucking cakes for god sake!
But he's still with his girlfriend, Its starting to hurt again.
my mum likes him, my little brother loves him to bits, he's perfect. and i can't have him.
my mum says he like me, but i don't know :/ its doing my head in.


I'm still off school :') been about 4 week now or something.. but yeah, who's complaining? not me, Just the government. Fuck them.
Gonna have so much coursework to catch up on though -.- Fml.


My mums been going out like constantly recently -.- so im stuck babysitting, But, i've got about 30 quid out of it :D 
and mattys been coming over so thats been putting me in good moods :)




Going shopping tommorrow with my mummy, Gonna  try convince her to let me have another piercing.. she said not till inn 16 because thats when i can have sex so i can do what i want them :')
but thats a whole 10 months away -.- so gonna be like "muuuuummmmy know like you love me" see where it gets me. 
Wish me luck, Seriously.




My dads starting to take the mic :/ he keeps letting us down.. making plans then saying he's busy.
meh.

OH! i got a new dress..

Valentines days overrated.

jbvubwjv I FUCKING HATE IT!

Especially when im single.
it doesn't half depress me.


it all started back in year 4..
I was yano, the normal girl, Happy and stuff.
there was a new boy, he was horrible.. I thought nothing of him, Until.
valentines day. Know the trays you had with all your stuff in in primary school? well yeah, it was break time and we went out for "play time".. when I got back, I opened my tray to get something out & there was a card.. I opening it, it was one of them really cheap ones, off this new boy.
inside it said " to katiey luve alex.. "it took my ages to read and I just didn't know what to do, by the end everyone in school found out and at dinner time I was pressured into getting with him -.-
we lasted about 6month, first kiss and everything it was horrible, but I'll never forget it.
bless my first valentines :')

so that why I don't like valentines day, I've not yet spent any of my whole 15 years of live with someone.
its very depressing actually.
im going to spend the day in bed, watching depressing films with chocolate and ice cream.

I started liking Matty again :/
even though  do care about Nathan, me and matt have been spending a lot of time together and i just kinda keep getting all these feeling for him back :/
I'm even having dreams about him, one where we had sex :| wtf.
and then another about us kissing, it was so wierd I woke up in a shit mood because i knew that it wasn't real & I'd do anything for it to be.
he's still with his girlfriend, he keeps like telling me shes annoying and his sister is telling me they arguing all the time :/
I really don't know what to do, I keep getting mixed signals off him..
like Saturday he blew his girlfriend and mates of and came mine, he stayed till 12 and we made cakes :') and we were lay on my bed looking into each others eyes :@ meh i hate it.

I reallllllllllly don't know what to do.

but yeah, FUCK VALENTINES DAY! :D

So i was going through my laptop, and found some stuff..

So it was Christmas night, feeling crap, what more can I need when I
have beer and my bestfriend.

Summer romance ;)

 

As you do, Chillin in Triangle toilets, My bestfriends the
classiest thing going I tell you that.

Chillin at Ivyrise gig, My bestfriend has never ending legs -.-

Yeah bitch, JohnnyGetTheGun are some amazing band.

OMGOMGOMG!
As if i had my picture took with JohnnyGetTheGun!
Look dreadful but god i was chuffed.

Betttttttth & Me.
So many memories.

So yeah, My first gig.
Kids in glass houses.
i was so scared i didn't even go in the mosh pits :') just chilled at the side.

So yeah, i dont know if you know but i have so mega obsession with Pixie Lott.
Im gonna marry her one day.
so my mums ex boyfriend got me two tickets :D
i was over the moon.

So yeah, me and him might not be together anymore..
But i miss him so much & love him with all my heart.

SANTASUSANNA 2010.
Best by far.
met so many amazing people on this holiday.

SANTASUSANNA10.
showin some of my moves on the dance floor.

i promised you pictures of my piercings :)

God i look like a tit :')
but its the only way you would be able to see them..

EAR; Traugs, Scaffold & now 12mm Strecher :D


MOUTH; Tongue & Smiley :D


other are my belly.. not gonna take picture coz its ewwwwey.
























                                            

Piercings?

15 and have 6 piercings.

blah! i want more, now.
but hey! tonight, I'm getting my tongue done :D

my piercings?

1) Ears - my first piercing was my ears, when i was like 8 or something, i don't know why, just wanted to.
2) Belly button - next i had my belly button done when i was 11, the day before my 12 birthday.. there was only 1 other girl in my year with it done, so i wanted to be the 2nd :)
3) Scaffold - when i started "changing" i decided i wanted to start piercings on my ear, so.. i got my scaffold done, i had a bar through it, it didn't hurt but afterwards it was like fml.
4) Ear Stretching - oh dear, i started stretching my ear, its now 8mm i remember when i went from 6mm to 8mm :') God it hurt, a lot.
5) Tragus - this is the only piercing that hurt me, it felt disgusting.
6) Smiley - Yaaaaay :D one of the happiest moments of my life, There isn't a lot of people that know about a smiley piercings, for the ones that don't, its the weird skin the the top of your mouth in front of your teeth. Google it.


Im in school at the minute but afterwards im off to get my tongue pierced :D I'm so scared, i dont know why, i get scared everytime i go for a piercing, and then most of the time it doesnt end up hurting!

What my family thinks?
Well Well Well most of them don't like them & they always go on about them that I'm a piece of metal or something, it annoys me and sometimes upsets me, but now I'm sorta used to it.

My mother has told me im not aloud any for a while after my tongue but i can convince her.
i dont want any till i leave school now i think, but il end up changing my mind.


WHAT I WANT DONE WHEN I LEAVE SCHOOL?

• Anti - Tragus.
• Frowny.
• Nose.
• Septum.
• Lip.
• Hip.
• Neck.

i think thats about it :')

but yeah, people call me weird for having so many piercings in weird places, but i don't care :D

PS IM GONNA PUT SOME PICTURES UP SOON :D!

a girl being something she's not.xo

New years eve :|

Well shit.

Last night? Someone please shoot me.

Here's what happened..

right, I was planning on going Jorja's, but I just Didn't have the effort, because I was in a horrible mood, So I decided to stay in with my dad and my brother, But when I got there my father was in a horrible mood and I Wasn't staying in with him while he was like that.. I still Didn't want to go to Jorja's because we wasn't drinking and tbh, I cant be doing with no drinking because I don't like to know what I'm doing new year.. so my friend, Beth invited me round :).. seen as I used to like her brother and think I will always have some bit of feelings for him it was a bit wierd, but I went.. luckily he went out..
Me & Beth got drunk, I couldn't walk properly x)
around 12 Mathew came home.. I always get really nervous when I see him.. I duno why, but I do.
he was recked outta his head, crawled up the stairs and everything..
i helped him get into bed and slapped him a couple of times because he was annoying me.2
but guess what silly me went and did? when I thought the twat was asleep, kissed him on the cheek went if you knew.. I love you". the twat heard me because he was awake.

he then texted me about a hour later when he had sobered up and told me to go into his room..
I did, we lay there for about 3 hours.. just talking about loads of stuff and he told me that him and his girlfriend Aint gonna last forever.. I was like in my head " I think I just died a little".
we then decided when he's single I'm gonna be his sex buddy :') Wtf is my life.
we then decided to blow up a apple flavour condom and opened pena colada lube, just to see what it tasted like, its really not nice. He then decided to put a condom on and then show it in my face, I was like :| wth.

then I went bed and woke up in the morning with the worst headace ever.


meh, I'm going back to bed now.
I'm in pain.

A girl being something shes not.xo