Fucking babysitting my twat of a brother what is my lifeeeeeeeeee?
im bored and its only been half a hour.
brothers gonna be in bed for 8 though ;)

aw Aidens tomorrow (a) hehe he makes me realllllly happy, and its so wierd, he goes out clubbing and shit and im trusting him when he's out, like i've never trusted anyone, maybe its something special..
happy happy happy me :))))

my sex life is greaaaaaaaaaat ;)

whats going on with the weather? seriously. Its warm but theres a breeze and its making me fucking freezing alllllll the time -.-

cba going watching cute films.. hehe see nothing depressing, because i'm happy!

xxx

aw, Jut watched the royal wedding, cutest thing ever!
i wanna be a princess, now.
ah it would be nice, meh mums been talking about her wedding, really cba with it, hate him, hate weddings, hate dressing up like a twat, yay.

having a party at my house tomorrow :D mums away for the night so i thought why not.. gonna be goooooooood.

aw, spend last night round at Aidens, was so much fun! met all his family, there great. his mums mad, can see it going somewhereeeeeee :)
he's so sweet & stuff, aw he's dead tall, blonde hair, blue eyes, well cute.
its even better than im smallll :) hehe.
going round tonight aswell (a)..

now, say chillin with a bright red hair dye on my head, shitttttttin myself quite frankly.
gonna look like one of them chav's trying to be rihanna -.- fml.

Things change, right?

wow my lifes a pile of wank.
Nothing good is happening!

why would you ring me drunk telling me all this shit that you cant stand me to hurt me.
they say a drunk man's words are a sober man's reality, just shows you can't stand me then don't it.

Time to move on, can't stay in the past, you've had time to try for me, shows i mean nothing.
you told me its not ment to be so im listening to you for once, i'm not to blame this time.
i know you'll always be the one lad il remember, i know that.
as much as i hate you, you made my life amazing for 9 months.
but thats over now, its goodbye. i never thought it would actually end, but it has and is killing me, but its something i have to do.

its something we can look back on in 10 years and think yeah, it was good while it lasted.
were gonna look back and laugh, might not seem it now, but we will i promise.
i know i've done so bad things in the time i've know you, but im not the only one, its not worth it  now, but i want you to forgive me.

i hope the girl your shagging is really happy, yeah it hurts me when "she" texts me telling me you shaged her, didnt think you was that low.
but thats thats, end of it all.

Goodbye.

I GOT MY CLEAVAGE PIERCED :D!

so so so so happy :D so sore at the minute though </3

my lifes so boring at the minute. like i've been out about 4 times the whole of the holiday and its been shit.

its like wtf? meh i need a life.

in some morbid mood, sat here in my room in the dark listening to taylor swift. what is my life?

I'm skint, bored, cold and lonely.

its shit being single, people say its great but its really not, seeing mates together all cute and stuff wants you to go die or something.

There is nothing great about being single.

Letting go of someone i've only met once in my life is harder than i thought.

its like what makes you so fucking special? your a nob thats done nothing but fuck me about!

thinking about the time we spent together kills me, so perfect and innocent and nearly a year down the line it leaves me heartbroken.

sometimes you wish you'd realise what you have when you've got them, coz when their gone, you can't have them back, i know this.

meh i don't know if its just me feeling depressed & lonley or me actually needing him.

wow i need a hug now, feel like shittttttttttttttt.

lovin life with this looking like i got no shorts on :')

Feel like the fattest shit ever. eaten far to much food today -.- its all i'm doing! takes the piss, its all i wanna do aswell.
i feel obese or something, meh.


Going seeing We Are The Ocean at the end of the month :D
really really really excited :)))

soooooooo i got with Adam, i made myself look like the tit & asked him out, gonna make it work, it has to work, i need him. He's the only think that makes me happy.

I love my bedroom wall.
it bring back so many memories, so many happy time.
gig tickets, photo's, signings, wristbands.

PHOTO'S; most of them are from when i was really young <3

there are more picture now, from Spain and gigs.

RED HAIR! :D

it looks purple on here -.- but i likeeeeee it :)

FOUND LOADS OF PICTURES ON MY LAPTOP :D

My legs? i look fresh with the socks.

So we were in town, and i wanted to do the splits.

I slipped into the sink.

Yes, im a twat & laughed while having a drink.

The oddest of pictures, bring back the most memories.

Christmas night, sorry but i look fresh.
Miss my hair :(

This picture was my favourite for months.
And people began thinking we were Lez :')

Bitch, im such a happy soul.

What twats.
shit my hair was rank.

I've not wrote in ages :(

I'VE HAD MY NOSE DONE!
It hurt, a friggin lot! sat chillin in beut and the mans like oh its katy i was like yeah boi, he was like you right? i was like yeah yeah pierce my nose please :D he was like you know you need your mam or dad don't  you or i can ring em girl, i was like well look its my daddy! he was like oh this is the man we talk about, i was like yeah boiiiiii

so yeah my daddy filled in the form, the man changed my smiley for me and then he was like oh you ready? wiped all my makeup off my nose -.-
put the glampers like up my nose, it proper tickled!
sprayed that really really cold stuff on it that goes all powdery and then i began to get scared :') squeezing my dads hand :') and he just pushed the needle through it was like nearly as painful as my tongue! its not that bad now though :)
Only got a stud in it though, would of looked like a twat with a ring.

so yeah , you cant see it properly, but i like it :D
omgomg i dont know if you know, i got my lip done, but i've took it out, but i can re-pierce it anytime :)

so i got my hair done :))))))))

had my full fringe put back in from when i was 9 and had loads of layers, then i decided to dye it red, its not like rihanna red but its got a really nice red tint :D so im happy.

so yeah, the lad from wales.

i miss him so frickin much, i love the cunt.

but were sorted it out, he's gonna sort his anger out and hopefully we wont argue again :)

santasusanna10. <3

Isnt it funny how no matter how much someone hurts you, you always end up going back to them.

Isnt it funny how when someone tells you forever they never mean it.

Isnt it funny how when someones 197 miles away you'd walk all the way just to see them.

Isnt it funny how 3 words can change everything.

I'm sick of pretending your just from my past
I'm sick of pretending i don't miss you.
I'm sick of pretending i don't want you.
I'm sick of pretending your mine.

i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i fucking miss you!

you were just one of them good looking lads i met on hoilday.
quiet a arse aswell.
proper loved yourself, thought you would get all the girls you wanted.
big headed really..

ping pong we were all playing, i didnt know you, i was out to impress, fell in love with your accent, welsh of course, had a few games, looked like a tit :') asked if you wanted to come beach with us all at night, you said "why not? will be a laugh" and smiled.
We all had a mess about in the sea, was fun, some idiot thought it would be fun to try and make a fire, we failed. as i was bored, i began making a hole in all the sand and stuck my feet in, you was messing about annoying me, i thought nothing of it, was wierd.
6th floor was the first time we touched, just the two of us, about half 2 in the morning, i asked for a hug, you said, " i'll see you in the morning you gimp" i said "i don't care, give me a hug." We hugged. i thought nothing of it at all.


the last day.

broke my heart it did.
i thought you were a twat the whole of the holiday but no, your were amazing.
you told my cousin you liked me, i couldnt belive it, i loved someone and never saw it coming.
why did you have to tell me you liked me, on the last day?!
i never saw it coming.

saying goodbye felt like someone was ripping my heart out and leaving it in spain.
knowing i was never going to see you again.
knowing this was goodbye and nothing was going to happen like it again.

what i'd do for us to be together is unbelievable, we argue all the time but i still love you your perfect.

from the 27th of july till now, i still love you as much as i did then.

i hate love.