Aw this weeks been crazy.

So, i split up with Jack! I just don't want a relationship, they so annoying.
But ah well, There is no point being with someone, if you cant find a reason why your with them right?

BUT OMFGGGGG!
I'm moving house :D
Got all my room planned out, And Dannys helping me do it, aw i can't wait.


God i cba writing, i have no effort, im well ill.

Bye.xo

Wellllllll then, Shit.

Today's been great, spent it with my boy he's so cute, We watched love actually & he proper got into it, Bless him.
Felt so nasty sending him home at 7 I felt so crap & took it out on him..
RFgdhfvgfvjtcA what a twat I am.

Sorted things out with Danny, were bestfriends again now, I've missed him lots.
Next day were both free were chillin in mine watching Takeshi's castle, eating rustlers burgers from Asda :D inside joke.
Aw I love him.

Shopping tommorrow with my mummy & grandma :D gonna be good, if I get up earlier enough.
Spending far to much money at the minute, really should stop -.-


Wow. On the phone to Adam, Yes fucking Adam.
I was watching gavin & stacey & it always reminds me of him,
Crying, was Reading some of my old blogs & just started crying.
He told me to man up like old times, God I miss those nights so much.

Knowing he never had & doesn't care about me hurts shit loads.



Meh, gonna go listening to Taylor Swift & cry myself to sleep.

What a weekend :) been dead good..

I'm so happy at the minute, Every things working out for once!
Its great :')

Aw, my boys home tomorrow, he's gone camping somewhere in Wales since Wednesday, done my head in :(
But spending tomorrow with him, Cant wait.

This weekend's been good, Spent the night in with Lauren, was good.. had a bottle of wine and shit, took some very odd pictures..
Didnt go sleep till like half 3 and then my mum got in at 8 was like VBOGRBHUVRN FDFVG Die woman.
Then had to get up and go shopping with my nan, head was hurting and just had no effort, some how ended up spending about 70 quid, On underwear, a top and some big thick knitted thing, makeup, hairspray and loads of other shit.
Don't know how i did it D:

I looked far to ruff to even show my face.

Aw i love her loads.

Fattest arse in the world me.

Night.xo

Wow, what a weekend.

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat have i done?!

This weekend?
Ended up sat in mine on Friday night, with a litre of vodka, got Danny and his mates round, sat there like a twat, steaming.
they went home, started being sick :/ felt horrible.
rang Adam, crying my eyes out, don't know what I said, slightly worried.
Then, Lee, Tommy and Chris came round, oh dear. Slept with Tommy, couldn't believe it.
Wish I didn't.

They finally went home, and this lad in school i like, i decided to tell him. I have liked him for a while, Me and him are really really close.
To my surprise he told me he liked me :D

And me and him are like going out now :))))
Its so wierd, he's like my age, in my form and everything its so odd.
He's cute x)


I'm looking really ruff at the minute :')
Belly's starting to show, horrible hiding it, Really don't know who to turn to, BUT MY BOOBS ARE GETTING BIGGER!
Funny when a few months ago, I thought it was the right thing to do, help  change not just my life, but someone else's and it gets thrown back in my face.

look this is how ruff i am.

god i feel shite.

going bed.xo

Facts that bring out another side of me;

1) I'm naturally ginger, and it knocks my confidence down so much.

2) The size of my ears and nose are disgusting, so i get piercings to stop people looking at the size.

3) If anyone put feet infront of me, i would brake every toe, then brake down crying.

4) Everyday i'm scared that my illness is going to take over me and i'm not going to be able to fight it anymore.

5) When i first got ill, i gave up on life, and ended up with nothing.

6) Every day when i take my tablets, go to the doctors, the hospital. I feel like I'm just some freak who's life is           

    controlled by tablets, to keep my alive, which they are. It hurts.

7) I hold on to someone far to much, when i know i shouldn't.

8) When someone calls me or tells me they don't care, a part of me feels like its braking in so many ways.

9) I only ever loved one person, i thought i loved others, but only one, he broke my heart and its still broken.

10) I can't stand being on my own, Even though i'm only 15, i need a hug, and someone to cuddle up with at                          night and tell me its gonna be okay.

11) I'm a cunt to my friends, but i love them so much, and i couldn't live without them.

12) My family mean a lot to me, but i couldn't see myself without my grandad, he's the only man that understands me & i don't know what I'm going to do when he passes away.

13) When i'm scared i squeeze my hands the hardest i can.

14)  If i have no makeup on, as stuck up as this sounds, i feel ugly and useless, it hurts so much.

15) If i could turn back time, i wouldnt change anything, i know i've made mistakes, but maybe one day, i'll realise it was better in the long run.

16) Them days where you just want to curl up and die, push my to the ground so so much.

17) I wish people would understand that when i say i'm not bothered that i cant have kids, i really really am.
18) I act like i don't worry about the future, but it really really scares me.
19) I make far to many mistakes.
20) I tell people i'm over them and hate them, but really i still care about them with all my heart.

A girl being something shes not.xo

Oh dear oh dear oh dear.

Today -.-

Had my RE Exam, Fuck it up big time, Answered 4 questions, so obviously gonna fail, yaaaaaaaay.
Don't give a shit, its only RE :)

Going to the City parade next Monday, Gonna be good.
Got my weekend planned already :D Gonna be gooooooooooood.

Spending Friday night , Going round to Jorja's boyfriend Matt's and getting drunk with them 2 and Joe, Gonnagget wasted, Not done it in a whileeeeeee :)

Thennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn, Saturday :D

Spending the day with Reece then he's staying at mine :) aw my lifes perfect. <3


Started spending time with my Grandad again, Relised how far apart we've grown and how much i miss him.
First night i went to see him he made me my favourite tea :D was chufffffed.


God i'm so tired, off to bed a happy girl :)))) <3

Had a great weekend if i'm honest.

Friday?
Spend the whole day in school, Again!
Then went to see my nan and chilled there for a bit.. then went all the way to bury just for a smiley bar -.- beacuse i was a twat and lost the balls of the one i had in. don't know how..
Got to about 6 and had to go all the way to town to meet Reece to find out he'd been to middelton, which is a lot closer to mine than Manchester -.- well annoyed.

We finally got to mine and just chilled all night, aw it was so perfect :))))

Saturday?
Went to Cardiff to watch Yr Ods was amazing, was so tired when i got home though, was early hours :(


Sunday?
I'm ginger! stripped my hair, so now its all natural & stuff :')
but i have brown dye on as we speak, was sick of red -.-




looklooklooklook!

I'm ginger :}

Happy, Happy, Happy :D

Never been so tired in my life.
But still smiling :)

Fainting a lot at the minute :') BUT still going school, and actually enjoying it! I dont know what's wrong with me :')
I'm up to date on all my coursework, seeing 3week ago, I was 3month behind..
I'm doing full days again, even when I have my diploma, I'm still going in, well proud of myself :D
They've like built a new part of school which has basically all the class rooms in, its so confusing! and loads of stairs -.-
Finally started doing PE, that's why I'm so tired, realised how un-fit I am, fun times!

I seem to be the only person I know single, its fucking wierd.
but I'm actually quite happy about it.
like because I'm not cheating on anyone or doing anything wrong :D
Because I'm still meeting Aiden now.. but then Reece is staying at mine on Friday :')
I really really like Reece, Aidens just someone there to cheer me up when I wanna go round his for a few hours.. Reece knows I go round so its all good :)
But yeah, me and him are just getting better & better :D god I'm actually really happy.

I've actually realised the whole world doesn't evolve around being in a relationship, there stupid and you just end up getting hurt.
New me anyway, and its great.

Just spend 4 hours moving my room around, think I've give myself whiplash or something moving my tv :/ Killllllling.
Looks so much better though :D
MOVING HOUSE IN 6 WEEKS :D, Out of this one and leaving the past behind me, New start and i cant wait :D

Having some really wierd dreams at the minute.. and then things go on in the day that makes sense to do with them, wierdddddddddddd.


Oh oh oh, I HAVE MY LIFE BACK :')
I don't spend my nights staying in doing nothing, I've been out like nearly even night, its greaaaaaaaat.

But tonight, I'm staying in and being sad & watching loads of shit on tv :D

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.xo

ReeceReeceReeceReeceReece <3
HappyHappyHappyHappyHappy <3

Spent the day in town with him.
went cinema, was great!
Amazing kisser, got his tongue pierced, it feel well wierd because we both do.. hehe.
not getting my hopes up this time, I've finally moved on from adam, know he's nothing but a lying cheat :')
but yeah, REEEEEECE <3
not been this happy in a long time..

My lifes back on track now, and nothings putting me down..

Hungover.
Spending the day in bed dying, but still in a good mood :D God, its great.
GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I'm so happy its unbelievable :D

Meeting Reece one day after school, when he doesn't have work, hehe cant waitttttt..

Cba with Adam anymore, i actually couldn't give a shit about him, aw he's shaggin all these girls lol, bless him.

omg i need sleep.
bye <3

Lol at my life.
off school today, ill as fuck, literally can't move.
went doctors, on more tablets and seeing a councillor.

his words were " Katy, have you been in a relationship recently?" yes, we split up about 3 week ago, " I think you should see a councillor, it will help with your depression" so you want me to sit there with someone I've never met before and go on about how shit I feel? " it will help you a lot Katy, you're illness is triggered with stress mainly and you're breakup has been a big effect on you, I really think it will be good" Great.

so coz of my fucked up relationship its ended up me seeing a twatty councillor. -.-
been put on more tablets i feel like some fucking druggy, its really getting my down, everything.

i can't seem to make myself happy, there's always something in the way getting me down, my night have come to getting in, throwing myself on the couch, watching TV, eating, watching TV, crying, going bed, eating, msn, eating, moaning to my mum, watching some shit on TV, Sleep.
Literally.

Mums depressed, shes done nothing but cry because of her so cold fiancia ended it with her, its killing her.
Feel sorry for my little brother with us both like this!

I'm gonna go eat, i can't get full :(
bye bye.

Found myself crying for the past 3 hours about how I miss Adam :/

can't even be arsed anymore.
Stopped talking to aiden & shit, fml.
Knew this would happen! And there's nothing I can do.

Cba, hospital tomorrow, night <3

Fucking babysitting my twat of a brother what is my lifeeeeeeeeee?
im bored and its only been half a hour.
brothers gonna be in bed for 8 though ;)

aw Aidens tomorrow (a) hehe he makes me realllllly happy, and its so wierd, he goes out clubbing and shit and im trusting him when he's out, like i've never trusted anyone, maybe its something special..
happy happy happy me :))))

my sex life is greaaaaaaaaaat ;)

whats going on with the weather? seriously. Its warm but theres a breeze and its making me fucking freezing alllllll the time -.-

cba going watching cute films.. hehe see nothing depressing, because i'm happy!

xxx

aw, Jut watched the royal wedding, cutest thing ever!
i wanna be a princess, now.
ah it would be nice, meh mums been talking about her wedding, really cba with it, hate him, hate weddings, hate dressing up like a twat, yay.

having a party at my house tomorrow :D mums away for the night so i thought why not.. gonna be goooooooood.

aw, spend last night round at Aidens, was so much fun! met all his family, there great. his mums mad, can see it going somewhereeeeeee :)
he's so sweet & stuff, aw he's dead tall, blonde hair, blue eyes, well cute.
its even better than im smallll :) hehe.
going round tonight aswell (a)..

now, say chillin with a bright red hair dye on my head, shitttttttin myself quite frankly.
gonna look like one of them chav's trying to be rihanna -.- fml.

Things change, right?

wow my lifes a pile of wank.
Nothing good is happening!

why would you ring me drunk telling me all this shit that you cant stand me to hurt me.
they say a drunk man's words are a sober man's reality, just shows you can't stand me then don't it.

Time to move on, can't stay in the past, you've had time to try for me, shows i mean nothing.
you told me its not ment to be so im listening to you for once, i'm not to blame this time.
i know you'll always be the one lad il remember, i know that.
as much as i hate you, you made my life amazing for 9 months.
but thats over now, its goodbye. i never thought it would actually end, but it has and is killing me, but its something i have to do.

its something we can look back on in 10 years and think yeah, it was good while it lasted.
were gonna look back and laugh, might not seem it now, but we will i promise.
i know i've done so bad things in the time i've know you, but im not the only one, its not worth it  now, but i want you to forgive me.

i hope the girl your shagging is really happy, yeah it hurts me when "she" texts me telling me you shaged her, didnt think you was that low.
but thats thats, end of it all.

Goodbye.

I GOT MY CLEAVAGE PIERCED :D!

so so so so happy :D so sore at the minute though </3

my lifes so boring at the minute. like i've been out about 4 times the whole of the holiday and its been shit.

its like wtf? meh i need a life.

in some morbid mood, sat here in my room in the dark listening to taylor swift. what is my life?

I'm skint, bored, cold and lonely.

its shit being single, people say its great but its really not, seeing mates together all cute and stuff wants you to go die or something.

There is nothing great about being single.

Letting go of someone i've only met once in my life is harder than i thought.

its like what makes you so fucking special? your a nob thats done nothing but fuck me about!

thinking about the time we spent together kills me, so perfect and innocent and nearly a year down the line it leaves me heartbroken.

sometimes you wish you'd realise what you have when you've got them, coz when their gone, you can't have them back, i know this.

meh i don't know if its just me feeling depressed & lonley or me actually needing him.

wow i need a hug now, feel like shittttttttttttttt.

lovin life with this looking like i got no shorts on :')

Feel like the fattest shit ever. eaten far to much food today -.- its all i'm doing! takes the piss, its all i wanna do aswell.
i feel obese or something, meh.


Going seeing We Are The Ocean at the end of the month :D
really really really excited :)))

soooooooo i got with Adam, i made myself look like the tit & asked him out, gonna make it work, it has to work, i need him. He's the only think that makes me happy.

I love my bedroom wall.
it bring back so many memories, so many happy time.
gig tickets, photo's, signings, wristbands.

PHOTO'S; most of them are from when i was really young <3

there are more picture now, from Spain and gigs.

RED HAIR! :D

it looks purple on here -.- but i likeeeeee it :)

FOUND LOADS OF PICTURES ON MY LAPTOP :D

My legs? i look fresh with the socks.

So we were in town, and i wanted to do the splits.

I slipped into the sink.

Yes, im a twat & laughed while having a drink.

The oddest of pictures, bring back the most memories.

Christmas night, sorry but i look fresh.
Miss my hair :(

This picture was my favourite for months.
And people began thinking we were Lez :')

Bitch, im such a happy soul.

What twats.
shit my hair was rank.

I've not wrote in ages :(

I'VE HAD MY NOSE DONE!
It hurt, a friggin lot! sat chillin in beut and the mans like oh its katy i was like yeah boi, he was like you right? i was like yeah yeah pierce my nose please :D he was like you know you need your mam or dad don't  you or i can ring em girl, i was like well look its my daddy! he was like oh this is the man we talk about, i was like yeah boiiiiii

so yeah my daddy filled in the form, the man changed my smiley for me and then he was like oh you ready? wiped all my makeup off my nose -.-
put the glampers like up my nose, it proper tickled!
sprayed that really really cold stuff on it that goes all powdery and then i began to get scared :') squeezing my dads hand :') and he just pushed the needle through it was like nearly as painful as my tongue! its not that bad now though :)
Only got a stud in it though, would of looked like a twat with a ring.

so yeah , you cant see it properly, but i like it :D
omgomg i dont know if you know, i got my lip done, but i've took it out, but i can re-pierce it anytime :)

so i got my hair done :))))))))

had my full fringe put back in from when i was 9 and had loads of layers, then i decided to dye it red, its not like rihanna red but its got a really nice red tint :D so im happy.

so yeah, the lad from wales.

i miss him so frickin much, i love the cunt.

but were sorted it out, he's gonna sort his anger out and hopefully we wont argue again :)

santasusanna10. <3

Isnt it funny how no matter how much someone hurts you, you always end up going back to them.

Isnt it funny how when someone tells you forever they never mean it.

Isnt it funny how when someones 197 miles away you'd walk all the way just to see them.

Isnt it funny how 3 words can change everything.

I'm sick of pretending your just from my past
I'm sick of pretending i don't miss you.
I'm sick of pretending i don't want you.
I'm sick of pretending your mine.

i miss you, i miss you, i miss you, i fucking miss you!

you were just one of them good looking lads i met on hoilday.
quiet a arse aswell.
proper loved yourself, thought you would get all the girls you wanted.
big headed really..

ping pong we were all playing, i didnt know you, i was out to impress, fell in love with your accent, welsh of course, had a few games, looked like a tit :') asked if you wanted to come beach with us all at night, you said "why not? will be a laugh" and smiled.
We all had a mess about in the sea, was fun, some idiot thought it would be fun to try and make a fire, we failed. as i was bored, i began making a hole in all the sand and stuck my feet in, you was messing about annoying me, i thought nothing of it, was wierd.
6th floor was the first time we touched, just the two of us, about half 2 in the morning, i asked for a hug, you said, " i'll see you in the morning you gimp" i said "i don't care, give me a hug." We hugged. i thought nothing of it at all.


the last day.

broke my heart it did.
i thought you were a twat the whole of the holiday but no, your were amazing.
you told my cousin you liked me, i couldnt belive it, i loved someone and never saw it coming.
why did you have to tell me you liked me, on the last day?!
i never saw it coming.

saying goodbye felt like someone was ripping my heart out and leaving it in spain.
knowing i was never going to see you again.
knowing this was goodbye and nothing was going to happen like it again.

what i'd do for us to be together is unbelievable, we argue all the time but i still love you your perfect.

from the 27th of july till now, i still love you as much as i did then.

i hate love.

so we aint gone camping yet -.- because it rained but hopefully tonight we are :D
will put pictures on when i recover if we go :)

took this the other night..

Finally have a life, for the weekend.

so yeah,  i have a fun weekend ahead.

Finally.

Gonna be good :D

so i met this lad through my bestfriend's friend & he's 16 in college, in a band, plays guitar, absolutely stunning, Can't get any better :D

he's got a gig on Friday so I'm going to that & thennnnn afterward every ones going camping :D

and the best bit about it me & Jorja have planned it so there wont be any twat's there..

going theres..

 me, 

Jorja,

Matthew ( Jorja's boyfriend ) 

Callum ( The lad im on about :D )

Adam

John( HE'S GINGER! )

Polly ( SHE'S GINGER! )

loads of pollys friends..

and a few others of us, i think its gonna be good :D

i quiet possibly could be very drunk. And make another mistake with callum :')

so yeah :D i went shopping in the week and got an aoutfit for a tener! its dead nice aswell & from h&m..

oh and a bra for a tenner, now thats fit.

this but in a like peach colour £4.99

This but in black £3.99!

i was pretty chuffed with it :D

so im kinda obsessed with my new eyeliner..

its about 8 quid but works wonders, im like attached to it.
it stays on forever, from crying wind, anything.

so yeah my mothers engaged and i dont know if im happy about it or not.. He seems to alwaqys want to be that bit better at making my mum happier than me :/ But yeah there getting married abroad and then having some massive party over here, oh the joys.

something will go wrong coz he got a bitch of an ex wife :')

gotta go -.- in school.

a girl being something shes not.xo

hg rbjvivbnv 
its been like forever.
im sorry </3

i actually missed you, but i've just not been able to get online!
i spent weeks in hospital then was always tired and now Im back at school i have time for nothing!
i hate it.

god you've all missed so much, i'v made mistakes, got drunk, had a laugh, fell out, made friends, been bitchy, the usual really :')

so lets startttttttt with hospital.
it all happened again -.-
spent like a life time in there, it was like pas boredom.
they still don't know whats wrong with me yet, its so annoying.

so yeah, i slept with matty :/
biggest mistake everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
fcb fgghuigvn g FACT!  wasn't even worth it.
my mum found out, his mum found out was so funny :') funny this is, my mum don't give a shit.
its not she don't care about me, she just knew it was gonna happen and there was nothing she could do :')
so now me and him aint walking, he hasn't told his girlfriend, so me & Jorja are trying to find her & were gonna tell her :D gonna be fun, God he's such a twat.
NEVER! play strip 21.

so then, loads of shit went round school about me when i was in hospital -.- people fell out with me, just because some slag was chatting shit, not even gonna go into detail. But tis all sorted now :D

So, my friend Beth, who is Mattys sister, came out bisexual and she likes me.
We don't talk anymore coz i shagged her brother :') what a twat.
not bothered, she gets terrorised at school.

omgomgomgomg!
IM GOING NEVERSHOUTNEVER! & THE MAINE IN 17DAYS!
so excited, got so many gigs coming up recently :D cost me hundreds -.-


thought about going lez. then thought again, i duno, i think im gonna stay away from boys at the minute, even though im meeting Jorja's boyfriends friend tomorrow :')
meh i duno, gonna have to be special to change my mind anyway, started thinking more wisely now anyway..

so yeah, i met A Day To Remember :D
very happy moment btw :')

meh i gotta gooo.
im my diploma -.- happy times, lol jks.
promise i wont forget to blog now, i missed it.

a girl being something she's not.xo

A little bit of an update :D

omgomgomgomg!
I ORDERED MY NEVERSHOUTNEVER! TICKET :D happy happy fucking happy.
March 23 2011 7:00 PM, Academy 2 Manchester.
Shall be the happiest moment ever.


God im so excited.


Bestfriend? Lol wtf.
I am no longer friends with Jorja, Don't ask why, Just no. People change.


Matty? bvgobfjfjg. (ANGER).
i dont fucking get it!
he has been at my house 4 nights in a row now, not leaving to late, we sit having a laugh watching tv with my pracically lay on him, we talk about the weirdest things, we made fucking cakes for god sake!
But he's still with his girlfriend, Its starting to hurt again.
my mum likes him, my little brother loves him to bits, he's perfect. and i can't have him.
my mum says he like me, but i don't know :/ its doing my head in.


I'm still off school :') been about 4 week now or something.. but yeah, who's complaining? not me, Just the government. Fuck them.
Gonna have so much coursework to catch up on though -.- Fml.


My mums been going out like constantly recently -.- so im stuck babysitting, But, i've got about 30 quid out of it :D 
and mattys been coming over so thats been putting me in good moods :)




Going shopping tommorrow with my mummy, Gonna  try convince her to let me have another piercing.. she said not till inn 16 because thats when i can have sex so i can do what i want them :')
but thats a whole 10 months away -.- so gonna be like "muuuuummmmy know like you love me" see where it gets me. 
Wish me luck, Seriously.




My dads starting to take the mic :/ he keeps letting us down.. making plans then saying he's busy.
meh.

OH! i got a new dress..

Valentines days overrated.

jbvubwjv I FUCKING HATE IT!

Especially when im single.
it doesn't half depress me.


it all started back in year 4..
I was yano, the normal girl, Happy and stuff.
there was a new boy, he was horrible.. I thought nothing of him, Until.
valentines day. Know the trays you had with all your stuff in in primary school? well yeah, it was break time and we went out for "play time".. when I got back, I opened my tray to get something out & there was a card.. I opening it, it was one of them really cheap ones, off this new boy.
inside it said " to katiey luve alex.. "it took my ages to read and I just didn't know what to do, by the end everyone in school found out and at dinner time I was pressured into getting with him -.-
we lasted about 6month, first kiss and everything it was horrible, but I'll never forget it.
bless my first valentines :')

so that why I don't like valentines day, I've not yet spent any of my whole 15 years of live with someone.
its very depressing actually.
im going to spend the day in bed, watching depressing films with chocolate and ice cream.

I started liking Matty again :/
even though  do care about Nathan, me and matt have been spending a lot of time together and i just kinda keep getting all these feeling for him back :/
I'm even having dreams about him, one where we had sex :| wtf.
and then another about us kissing, it was so wierd I woke up in a shit mood because i knew that it wasn't real & I'd do anything for it to be.
he's still with his girlfriend, he keeps like telling me shes annoying and his sister is telling me they arguing all the time :/
I really don't know what to do, I keep getting mixed signals off him..
like Saturday he blew his girlfriend and mates of and came mine, he stayed till 12 and we made cakes :') and we were lay on my bed looking into each others eyes :@ meh i hate it.

I reallllllllllly don't know what to do.

but yeah, FUCK VALENTINES DAY! :D

So i was going through my laptop, and found some stuff..

So it was Christmas night, feeling crap, what more can I need when I
have beer and my bestfriend.

Summer romance ;)

 

As you do, Chillin in Triangle toilets, My bestfriends the
classiest thing going I tell you that.

Chillin at Ivyrise gig, My bestfriend has never ending legs -.-

Yeah bitch, JohnnyGetTheGun are some amazing band.

OMGOMGOMG!
As if i had my picture took with JohnnyGetTheGun!
Look dreadful but god i was chuffed.

Betttttttth & Me.
So many memories.

So yeah, My first gig.
Kids in glass houses.
i was so scared i didn't even go in the mosh pits :') just chilled at the side.

So yeah, i dont know if you know but i have so mega obsession with Pixie Lott.
Im gonna marry her one day.
so my mums ex boyfriend got me two tickets :D
i was over the moon.

So yeah, me and him might not be together anymore..
But i miss him so much & love him with all my heart.

SANTASUSANNA 2010.
Best by far.
met so many amazing people on this holiday.

SANTASUSANNA10.
showin some of my moves on the dance floor.

i promised you pictures of my piercings :)

God i look like a tit :')
but its the only way you would be able to see them..

EAR; Traugs, Scaffold & now 12mm Strecher :D


MOUTH; Tongue & Smiley :D


other are my belly.. not gonna take picture coz its ewwwwey.
























                                            

Piercings?

15 and have 6 piercings.

blah! i want more, now.
but hey! tonight, I'm getting my tongue done :D

my piercings?

1) Ears - my first piercing was my ears, when i was like 8 or something, i don't know why, just wanted to.
2) Belly button - next i had my belly button done when i was 11, the day before my 12 birthday.. there was only 1 other girl in my year with it done, so i wanted to be the 2nd :)
3) Scaffold - when i started "changing" i decided i wanted to start piercings on my ear, so.. i got my scaffold done, i had a bar through it, it didn't hurt but afterwards it was like fml.
4) Ear Stretching - oh dear, i started stretching my ear, its now 8mm i remember when i went from 6mm to 8mm :') God it hurt, a lot.
5) Tragus - this is the only piercing that hurt me, it felt disgusting.
6) Smiley - Yaaaaay :D one of the happiest moments of my life, There isn't a lot of people that know about a smiley piercings, for the ones that don't, its the weird skin the the top of your mouth in front of your teeth. Google it.


Im in school at the minute but afterwards im off to get my tongue pierced :D I'm so scared, i dont know why, i get scared everytime i go for a piercing, and then most of the time it doesnt end up hurting!

What my family thinks?
Well Well Well most of them don't like them & they always go on about them that I'm a piece of metal or something, it annoys me and sometimes upsets me, but now I'm sorta used to it.

My mother has told me im not aloud any for a while after my tongue but i can convince her.
i dont want any till i leave school now i think, but il end up changing my mind.


WHAT I WANT DONE WHEN I LEAVE SCHOOL?

• Anti - Tragus.
• Frowny.
• Nose.
• Septum.
• Lip.
• Hip.
• Neck.

i think thats about it :')

but yeah, people call me weird for having so many piercings in weird places, but i don't care :D

PS IM GONNA PUT SOME PICTURES UP SOON :D!

a girl being something she's not.xo

New years eve :|

Well shit.

Last night? Someone please shoot me.

Here's what happened..

right, I was planning on going Jorja's, but I just Didn't have the effort, because I was in a horrible mood, So I decided to stay in with my dad and my brother, But when I got there my father was in a horrible mood and I Wasn't staying in with him while he was like that.. I still Didn't want to go to Jorja's because we wasn't drinking and tbh, I cant be doing with no drinking because I don't like to know what I'm doing new year.. so my friend, Beth invited me round :).. seen as I used to like her brother and think I will always have some bit of feelings for him it was a bit wierd, but I went.. luckily he went out..
Me & Beth got drunk, I couldn't walk properly x)
around 12 Mathew came home.. I always get really nervous when I see him.. I duno why, but I do.
he was recked outta his head, crawled up the stairs and everything..
i helped him get into bed and slapped him a couple of times because he was annoying me.2
but guess what silly me went and did? when I thought the twat was asleep, kissed him on the cheek went if you knew.. I love you". the twat heard me because he was awake.

he then texted me about a hour later when he had sobered up and told me to go into his room..
I did, we lay there for about 3 hours.. just talking about loads of stuff and he told me that him and his girlfriend Aint gonna last forever.. I was like in my head " I think I just died a little".
we then decided when he's single I'm gonna be his sex buddy :') Wtf is my life.
we then decided to blow up a apple flavour condom and opened pena colada lube, just to see what it tasted like, its really not nice. He then decided to put a condom on and then show it in my face, I was like :| wth.

then I went bed and woke up in the morning with the worst headace ever.


meh, I'm going back to bed now.
I'm in pain.

A girl being something shes not.xo