NEW YEAR'S PARTY!

Yes bitch's.

i have my new year planned.
It's november & i already have it planned, actually chuffed.

wanna know?
well im going to tell you anyway :D..

Right.
you know my bestfriend jorja? the one the last post is about ( my amazing, beautiful bestfriend, i love dearly).
well yeah, she normally has a new year party, but her mum & dad are at home so she has none of her mates over.. but! this year, she's getting them to go out..
and if they wont't my mother & her boyfriend are going away for a few days so its PARTTTTTTY!
mate, i'm buzzin.

its really gonna be amazing, I'm serious, im so excited.
We've done the lists and everything, for alcohol & list of people coming :D

efbrgbvbgpibunbfubggjk njhhnk
sorry that was me showing you  how excited i am.. you can tell cant you :D

the list of beer is never ending, but i have my christmas money.. so gonna use that ;) & jorja will have some, everyone else can bring there own.
matttttttttte, i dont care that i sound like a chav! im so excited :D

the fact the lad i reallllly like is gonna be there..
i invited him last night and he was like yeah sure il come it would be a laugh so i was like YES!
i love the fact im really good mates with his sister who is in my  year :D
i told him i like him last night aswell, he has a girlfriend but i didn't know  how he was going to take it.. he was just like ah right okay, but he didn't say he didn't actually like me, he just was like i don't want this to ruin our friendship though katy i was like meh :( i want it to be more than friendship.
btw i give up with that lad i really love :/ im gonna have to get over him.. and this is the only way isn't it? to like someone else, so yano, lets see how it goes..
anywayyyyyyyyyy
yeah new year, he's coming, i told him he can bring his girlfriend but he didn't comment back, she sounds like a right bitch tbh, never see's him or anything, they've been togehter a year next month :/ and i want him. like really want him.. he's so lovely.
right i need to shut up about him :') im on about new year.. he's coming and im just gonna see how it goes  yano :/

but tis gonna be amazing, we have about 30 people on the list already, im not gonna invite a load of people know what i mean? pointless because the house is gonna get ruined so yannnno, we wont go there.


im off now :)
lovesmuch.xo

a girl being somethings shes not.

my bestfriend.

  

this is me & my bestfriend.
she spells her name different. Jorja.
she's of her fucking head all the time. i adore this.
she's always here when i need her, no matter what time or day.
she's stunning

the night i lost my virginity, Yes classy. but i love her for this night,

.
she dresses so odd.
she stands out in the crowd.
she tells it how it is.
she doesn't care what anyone thinks.
she's amazing.

Yes, we have leopard print eyes, Yes I know, its amazing. 

she'll do anything to make me smile.
she calls me every name under the sun.
she'll kill anyone that hurts me.
she'll stay with me till I fall asleep when i cant.
she'll always be my bestfriend.

This night was amazing, i finally looked older than i am, yes i was chuffed.


some people call it falling out we call it strong disagreements ;)
some people call us mad, we call it just being us :)
some people don't like us, yeah their chavs.
some people tell us they love how close we are, yeah, were inseparable. some people are jealous of the way we are, there not in my life anymore.

After one of our strong dissagrements this was the first night we spend together in agesss, it was quiet amazing.                                                          

your there for me at anytime i need you.
i couldn't live without you of im honest.
you may do my nut in but i bloody love you.

This night was the night i got my heart broken by the one lad i love with all my heart, She was there for me at 3 o clock in the morning to help me through it, She was the only one that told me he wasn't worth it and i will help you no matter what, she was the one that told me he's bad news but i didn't listen yeah she may of told me i told you so but still hugged me till i was fine. she was the only person that made me smile for weeks. Now that's a bestfriend.

Yes we tend to try keep our outfits the same.

Yes we go everywhere together. It's a part of being bestfriends. You gotta love bonfire night 2010.

i love my bestfriend more than anything in the world k?

just jc'ing in my diplomaaaaaaaaaaa.

God, the joys.
actually can't stand school, complete bore.
day got worse & worse if im honest.

woke up, late, like everrrrryday, mother came in screaming & shouting telling me to move my backside because I'm going to be late.
got readddddddy, got dressed in my silly uniform, god i hate blazers.
seen as i have a silly eye infection i only put eyeliner on the top of my eye :} looks quiet good if I'm honest, everyones been like ohhh look at your eyes! you look so different, i'm like stfu.
so yeah, got to school with like 5 minutes to spare before the bell went, i love being late. i feel like a rebel because i get put on the late list.
yes i know, rebel.

yeah anyway, went into the canteen the bestfriends sat jc'ing in the corner with thee other lovely people i call friends & i go to sit down the bell goes -.- like fml. form, with some gimp of a teacher that can't control us at all, bless her.


Scienceeeeeeeeeeee.
after form i had science, this wasn't that bad because we did a piratical & because me and Gina are rebels we threw the stuff into the bun-ton burner, it made a lovely little fireworks display, Mr Searle dint think so, fun times :').. some girl that sits next to me in this lesson has problems, i love how she can tell me all about them. she's a babe.

englisshhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
blah i have my head of year for science, she aint as bad as everyone makes her out to be if im honest.
we all sat & watched romeo & juliet, its so sweet, romance with violence :') what more could you want? but yeah we spend a whole lesson watching this, good times.
me & one of my bestfriends were sat with this girl who can't tell the time, we found it funny when she asked us the time, sorry but your in year 10 and can't tell the time, please tell me there is nothing wrong with you & be serious? didn't think so.

BRAKE TIMEEEEEEE :D
yes, i do like this part of the day because it brakes up my lessons & i get to see my boyfriend, he's amazing, most of the time.
unlike today, i walked into the canteen he was sat with some girl & boy who i dislike, a hell of a lot so i was like meh.
the fact he's stretched his ear -.- yeah but mines better its a 8 :D his is a 2 x) and its my stretcher he has aswell, the things i do for  him.
but yeah, he would rather go sell fags round the back than see him girlfriend, yeah this really annoyed me. he complained that his stretcher was to small & then pissed off. yes piss take i know.

he thinks he's coming my house to night, if he carries on being like this he can get lost :)

blah.
MATHSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
i dispise this lesson, especally recently. she must really love algebra.
its all we do! seriously.
only good thing about maths is that i sit next to this girl and i can tell her anything, shes like a diary, she knows everything about me.
shes pretty amazing.

DIPLOMAAAAAAAAA.
now im in my IT Diploma lesson, meh its annoying.
but like i gotta go now, because its doing my head in & the lesson is nearly finished then i can go home & see my boyfriend :)))))
Good times.

A small town girl, trying to be something she's not.
Lovesmuch.xo

I don't pretend to know what love is..

I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; 


Don't you hate it when people tell you we're to young to know what love is?
maybe we are? but least we think we know what is is at the moment & can be happy enough to feel like this.

When I had him.
When I had him I met him for the first time I just stood and stared like nobody else was around me.
when I had him he would smile and it was like the world was all made better.
when I had him he looked into my eyes I went into a trance & couldn't get out.
when I had him he kissed me my stomach would do summer salts & I couldn't help but smile.
when I had him I would sit on top of him and just look at him I felt like the luckiest girl alive.
when I had him he called me beautiful I lifted of the ground.


When I lost him.
when I lost him it felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest.
when I lost him I cried for days and days.
when I lost him he was always on my mind.
when I lost him I knew I would do anything to get him back.
when I lost him I'd walk past his work everyday on purpose just to see his beautiful face, even though it hurt.
when I lost him I realised he was all i needed.

he was the boy that made everything feel perfect, he was the boy I'd dreamed of all my life, he was the boy that I could be myself around, he was the boy that I didn't care what I looked like around, he was the boy who I needed.

I had this boy & it was perfect, no it was more than perfect.
I introduced him to my parents, that went perfect.
I lay next to him on my bed doing nothing but smile, that was perfect.
I told him things I couldn't tell anyone, now I know that was perfect.
I felt like I was never on the ground when around him, that was perfect.
I told him I loved him, he told me he loved me, that was definitely perfect.

when I first met him I knew he was going to mean something to me it was so perfect for a period of time, he made me the happiest girl alive, I told myself were going to be something that I could call mine forever.

I remember the first time I kissed you.
we were sat in the memorial gardens, just next to the big stone lady, you remember? I told you I was cold, you slowly put your arm around me, I felt my whole insides warm up, I placed my head on your shoulder softly, just in case you didn't want it there, you did.
you made sure I moved my head up & looked me in the eyes, this was when I knew I wanted you.
you moved your head slowly closer to mine, so did I.
our lips touched like I'd never touched anyone's before, it was perfect.
when we finished I couldn't stop smiling, I knew you was what I wanted & needed in my life.

I remember how we got together.
after spending the night together, I went home feeling the happiest girl ever, not thinking I could feel any better.
i could.
the moment you said" I guess were together then?" changed my world. it was perfect.

I remember when you met my mother.
I was terrified, it was your idea, I wasn't happy with it.
she was working, there was me, you & my bestfriend, you both dragged me into her works..
you hunted her down as my head was going 10000000 miles per hour, scared of what she would think of you.
no other lad had ever met my mum before, this is how I knew you was different.
you both automatically clicked it was perfect you both got on so well.

I remember the moment that I'll never forget.
we were both lay on my bed, you had a long day at work, I had a long day at school.
there was nobody in the house, except my little brother that kept coming in and out the house, that didn't bother us..
you was lay so I couldn't get comfy on purpose, we always messed around when we were bored some how I ended up sitting on you.
staring into your eyes feeling amazing.
you sat up, kissed me & told me you loved me.
perfect.

I remember when I lost you.
everyone knew it was going to happen except me.
I was to blinded by love to realise you didn't want me.
you did it the slyest thing ever, finished me.
by text message the first time. it killed me.
second time, it was over Facebook, by deleting me.
you said I was clingy, I was only the way I was because I was scared to loose you, but in the end I did.
I thought you had more balls than that.
you had no feelings for me what so ever, you broke my heart and crushed it into tiny tiny pieces.
day by day I got worse & worse, knowing I needed you in my life.
I lost you & that day, a part of me died.

This is a girl with a broken heart.
you were my first love & my last love.
I still miss you, I still love you & still want you in my life.
I would do anything for you to be back in my life, but there's nothing i can do.

I love you.

It's just a part of what i am..

meh.
I'm katy Thomson.

I'm a girl trying to be something i'm not, its working.
I'm a girl trying to find a way to figure life out, im failing.
I'm a girl trying to smile, its not working.
I'm a girl trying to find that prince charming they all go on about, mine got lost in the woods.
I'm a girl trying to stop the scary dreams at night..i still have them.

He's the boy that i want to be prince charming.
He's the boy i think about constantly.
He's the boy i wanna fall asleep next to at night.
He's the boy that i walk past and my stomach does summersaults.
He's the boy i'm never going to get back.
He's the boy that isnt my boyfriend, work that one out.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

My boyfriend only wants me for sex. N'uff said.

typical thing you see.
that girl that wants to be the thing she isn't, yeah thats me.
gonna do about it?
nothing.
didn't think so.

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
pointless.

full on live for the weekend's. Lifes shite, till it comes to friday night, but hey, it doesn't always get better after that.
my friday's are full of alchol, cigrettes, takeaway, mistakes, hangovers & sex.

THIS IS JUST A PART OF WHAT I AM.