Valentines days overrated.

jbvubwjv I FUCKING HATE IT!

Especially when im single.
it doesn't half depress me.


it all started back in year 4..
I was yano, the normal girl, Happy and stuff.
there was a new boy, he was horrible.. I thought nothing of him, Until.
valentines day. Know the trays you had with all your stuff in in primary school? well yeah, it was break time and we went out for "play time".. when I got back, I opened my tray to get something out & there was a card.. I opening it, it was one of them really cheap ones, off this new boy.
inside it said " to katiey luve alex.. "it took my ages to read and I just didn't know what to do, by the end everyone in school found out and at dinner time I was pressured into getting with him -.-
we lasted about 6month, first kiss and everything it was horrible, but I'll never forget it.
bless my first valentines :')

so that why I don't like valentines day, I've not yet spent any of my whole 15 years of live with someone.
its very depressing actually.
im going to spend the day in bed, watching depressing films with chocolate and ice cream.

I started liking Matty again :/
even though  do care about Nathan, me and matt have been spending a lot of time together and i just kinda keep getting all these feeling for him back :/
I'm even having dreams about him, one where we had sex :| wtf.
and then another about us kissing, it was so wierd I woke up in a shit mood because i knew that it wasn't real & I'd do anything for it to be.
he's still with his girlfriend, he keeps like telling me shes annoying and his sister is telling me they arguing all the time :/
I really don't know what to do, I keep getting mixed signals off him..
like Saturday he blew his girlfriend and mates of and came mine, he stayed till 12 and we made cakes :') and we were lay on my bed looking into each others eyes :@ meh i hate it.

I reallllllllllly don't know what to do.

but yeah, FUCK VALENTINES DAY! :D