Don't you hate it when people tell you we're to young to know what love is?
maybe we are? but least we think we know what is is at the moment & can be happy enough to feel like this.
When I had him.
When I had him I met him for the first time I just stood and stared like nobody else was around me.
when I had him he would smile and it was like the world was all made better.
when I had him he looked into my eyes I went into a trance & couldn't get out.
when I had him he kissed me my stomach would do summer salts & I couldn't help but smile.
when I had him I would sit on top of him and just look at him I felt like the luckiest girl alive.
when I had him he called me beautiful I lifted of the ground.
When I lost him.
when I lost him it felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest.
when I lost him I cried for days and days.
when I lost him he was always on my mind.
when I lost him I knew I would do anything to get him back.
when I lost him I'd walk past his work everyday on purpose just to see his beautiful face, even though it hurt.
when I lost him I realised he was all i needed.
he was the boy that made everything feel perfect, he was the boy I'd dreamed of all my life, he was the boy that I could be myself around, he was the boy that I didn't care what I looked like around, he was the boy who I needed.
I had this boy & it was perfect, no it was more than perfect.
I introduced him to my parents, that went perfect.
I lay next to him on my bed doing nothing but smile, that was perfect.
I told him things I couldn't tell anyone, now I know that was perfect.
I felt like I was never on the ground when around him, that was perfect.
I told him I loved him, he told me he loved me, that was definitely perfect.
when I first met him I knew he was going to mean something to me it was so perfect for a period of time, he made me the happiest girl alive, I told myself were going to be something that I could call mine forever.
I remember the first time I kissed you.
we were sat in the memorial gardens, just next to the big stone lady, you remember? I told you I was cold, you slowly put your arm around me, I felt my whole insides warm up, I placed my head on your shoulder softly, just in case you didn't want it there, you did.
you made sure I moved my head up & looked me in the eyes, this was when I knew I wanted you.
you moved your head slowly closer to mine, so did I.
our lips touched like I'd never touched anyone's before, it was perfect.
when we finished I couldn't stop smiling, I knew you was what I wanted & needed in my life.
I remember how we got together.
after spending the night together, I went home feeling the happiest girl ever, not thinking I could feel any better.
i could.
the moment you said" I guess were together then?" changed my world. it was perfect.
I remember when you met my mother.
I was terrified, it was your idea, I wasn't happy with it.
she was working, there was me, you & my bestfriend, you both dragged me into her works..
you hunted her down as my head was going 10000000 miles per hour, scared of what she would think of you.
no other lad had ever met my mum before, this is how I knew you was different.
you both automatically clicked it was perfect you both got on so well.
I remember the moment that I'll never forget.
we were both lay on my bed, you had a long day at work, I had a long day at school.
there was nobody in the house, except my little brother that kept coming in and out the house, that didn't bother us..
you was lay so I couldn't get comfy on purpose, we always messed around when we were bored some how I ended up sitting on you.
staring into your eyes feeling amazing.
you sat up, kissed me & told me you loved me.
perfect.
I remember when I lost you.
everyone knew it was going to happen except me.
I was to blinded by love to realise you didn't want me.
you did it the slyest thing ever, finished me.
by text message the first time. it killed me.
second time, it was over Facebook, by deleting me.
you said I was clingy, I was only the way I was because I was scared to loose you, but in the end I did.
I thought you had more balls than that.
you had no feelings for me what so ever, you broke my heart and crushed it into tiny tiny pieces.
day by day I got worse & worse, knowing I needed you in my life.
I lost you & that day, a part of me died.
you were my first love & my last love.
I still miss you, I still love you & still want you in my life.
I would do anything for you to be back in my life, but there's nothing i can do.
I love you.
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